drunk blogging...

They say that failure to sleep for a day, or roughly staying up for more than 18 hours will level one's hand-eye coordination as well as reflex reaction and critical thinking to that of a drunk man. So vaguely I'm drunk right now, just not under the influence of alcohol.

I didn't mean not to sleep, it's just that i got engrossed at doing the cover of Hatsune miku's celluloid. Well it wasn't really a cover, wikipedia says that for something, say a song, to qualify as a cover of an original, it has to sound precisely like the original using the same instruments that the original used. Any alteration should only be in the vocals. And that's cruel. Luckily there exists this unspoken code of conduct among the entire human race that any attempt to recreate any song would already qualify as a cover for that particular song. Hurray for unwritten agreements among men!!! Which i why i think it's proper to say that i gave up sleep to do a cover for a song.

This song was unique in so many levels. The harmony, the melody, even the chord progressions were alien to me, but i have this feel of it that it sounded good, though it was kinda murdered coz it did not sound close to the original... anyway it was still a cover, leave me alone wikipedia!!!..,, =]

cosplayers multiplied in number ever since alodia started airing at various programs in television. Or maybe they were really plenty to start with, only that alodia's fame was needed for them to go outside of their shells and showcase anime-ity to the wurld. This for me is a double win situation. back then I never thought that we would buy water granted that 75% of the world is H2O, just as i never thought that i'll be sseing so many anime-ish people roaming around at malls and restaurants and even at downtown centro and being normal despite the fact that the norm is dissident to accepting this kind of art. Even my mother has her issues regarding cosplayers coloring their hair..,., First win, i like anime and seeing their human counterparts practically everyday is the best stress reliever next to coffee.,., =] .,. Second win is that, anime really is an ideal i wish to look up to (leave me alone wikipedia!!!) ., LoL.,When i am in my most vulnerable hours (like when i'm drunk from not sleeping) i kinda enter into a trance where when i'm in it, I remember all of my hopes and dreams (which will cease to exist after I get some sleep) some of which are connected or have been in one way or another inspired by anime.

Further than Recent, I've finished watching season two of K-ON.. or simply K-ON!! with those distinguished double punctuation marks. I like.,., or perhaps the right word is i ENVY so much the friendship those five lead characters hold so dear to them. I got unlucky in friendship just a while back, it was maybe in my second year of college when the my peers and i got into a misunderstanding. Actually i was in the peacemaker side, watching two opposing forces clash against each other. But, i failed to take into consideration that being in the middle would give you inevitable vulnerability in taking the the doubts both sides have on you, unless one can handle peacemaking well, one is ok,,,, but at that particular instance, i failed... i not only failed, i sucked at it... enough reason for things to go out of hand and guess what, like the double punctuation in K-ON!! the tables were turned and all of them were against me. The peacemaker.,.,., is now the person everybody hates. up to now i still can't figure out why it had to happen, i guess i needed to learn some lessons but as from where i am now, in a state of having learned some of the lessons, i could clearly say that i could've learned without losing the persons who were everything to me... ooops.,., reality check, ^you're losing it neithan, calm down^ **breathes*.,,

I still believe i can find a K-ON group of my own,,, a group that i could exist with, somewhere that i'll not have to do anything clever to know i'm wanted. I'll find that group, and ..... and.,., fudge,, i'm hungry.,., i need to eat breakfast.,,,., ***yawn*, i've finished uploading the video.,..,so i think it's high time to get some shut eye.,,..,thanks for always being open bloggy..,, find me some friends soon oK? g'nyt.,.,

image from josefinabakery.com

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instantly special.,.,

I'm not really good at directly saying things that i want other people to understand, Especially if it's to be told to people i don't fully know...

this week has been pretty rough for me despite my high hopes of having an awesome Christmas vacation, the leftover academic requirements proved to be insurmountable though given ample time provided by the yuletide break.Although i can identify things that made me happy at random days during the week, i still feel that overall, i'm down and depressed, just a little bit.,,

the game development project is proving itself to be a challenge above my par. starting it was easy, but when we came to the part where we needed to translate every code written to cater network connectivity for it to be played via LAN, I felt like playing super mario without any powerups, HELPLESS.

but as the title suggests, I wrote not to whine, but to thank two girls who seemed to have portrayed the role of being my "last good things about this part of town" people. ETHIE and TRINITY...

trinity is someone i've never actually met, seen, or heard of. but what i know is that she blogs, and i blog and she writes on my page, and i write on hers and i makes me feel good that someone actually replies to me online.,., =] .., and during this sad phase of the vacation she wrote on my page, saying she would add me up to a group of some sort. I liked that, it feels nice., =] I don't even know how that alleviated some of the stress i'm feeling towards me losing my glasses. LoL...
What are the chances that you'll be reading this one trinity? is trinity even your real name? In case you do, keep heart in my gratitude towards you and to people like you who are "online acquaintances" yet feel more of a real friend than those whom I actually meet in person. it's xmas, and you actually made my day.,. though it's roughly an hour before it ends.,, continue to keep in touch if it's not too much of a burden.,, =]

ethie is my idol. She's not famous or anything, it's just that she loves doing things that i also love doing, musical covers of soundtracks and stuff. and she's pretty good at it. wait, that's an understatement, let me try again,,,, She so fudging GOOD AT IT!!!! yeah!!!!!!!!!!! haha
What pushes my button though is that she finds time to do these things while struggling to keep up with pretty much things that i also keep up with. studies and life in general. And in these sensitive times when it feels like the atomic bomb of depression just got dropped in our front yard, seeing someone you look up to present in your youtube channel's 'subscribers' panel, felt like i was given water just as i was dying of thirst. with those things said, I'll just say thank you and i hope that's enough....i was finding of a more intense synonym but i can't think of any.,., so please accept my thanks.,.,

I probably won't feel comfortable telling both of you that i blogged about you, so maybe i'll just write things in your chatboxes.... =].,., and just in case you've read the post, i'm just hoping we could become stay in touch..,, =].., and be friends online (?)..,

yeah, officially this is embarrassing.,., =].,.
i just read the title again.,,.
i feel hungry.,..,., no, my eyes just hurt so bad i'm daydreaming about getting a new pair.,.,T.T.,

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Help me title my song., =]

download the .wav file here:

http://www.4shared.com/audio/1y42kZ7R/yes_2.html

::LYRiX::

verses:

We focus more on the
things that we would have,
things that we should have,
things that we could have done...

And quite neglect all those things that we've done right
times when our lives would just fall into place,

When we first met I expected that you were an ordinary gurl
with an ordinary place in my heart,
it never came to me that we wold get, closer and closer
stronger through time...

When all was hard we would share all the burden
fix them all up, and laugh all our problems away
successes were sweeter coz i got someone like you whom i could share it with
I really treasure the friendship we have and
i want you to know i had fun just being with you,
bu now that we would take our own ways i bid to you goodbye my friend..

pre-chorus:

even though you're far away i'll stay with you, i'll always be right there,
I would miss you badly, and i would be waiting here for you, just remember,

chorus:

I don't need time and space just to realize, that all i wanna do is be with you,
you don't need to go, just for me to know, that it wouldn't be the same without you here,
I wanna be beside teh one I care for,
I wanna hold those arms just once again,
I wanna hear the voice that makes me feel alright,
I wanna be with you, only you, till teh very end.
verses:

One thing i've learned from this life that I live is that things that I have, are not really things that I own,
so I cry over things that I've broken, things took for granted, things that I've lost because,
they say that we wouldn't know the importance of things that we have unless they are taken away, but I say that I knew how important you are to me from the very start

pre-chorus2:

It's just that i didn't expect that we would say good bye too soon,
be it temporary, I still would miss you just the same, please remember,

(repeat chorus)

:::: thanks for dropping by and reading this, i'll be happy to read your suggestions on the chat box (on teh left) or on facebook or twitter... =] thanks!

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