Something dead is keeping me alive

I've been sick for almost a month now.,.,my cough won't go away.,.,anti-biotics aren't helping either.,,.,i'm losing grip of my studies.,.,and everything worsens from fail to like a higher level fail.,.,XD.,,

I really wasn't that much of the emotional type.,.,Not until i started losing friends..,, I didn't exactly knew how everything happened for although it was a semester long struggle, it felt like it happened in a span of days.,.,.,XD But to summarize it all though..,there were no fights.,.,there were no direct trashtalks.,.,but there was a lot of explaining.,.,My friend got into a misunderstanding with my bestfriend.,.,,and i sided with my 'not bestfriend' for reasons that I agree with what my not bestfriend is saying.,.,.and when my bestfriend told me the truth (his side of the truth) it was just to late to turn back to him though i really wanted to.,.,I blew up anchor.,.,,backstabbed him and all.,.,and everything was a mess.,. Adding insult to the injury was that my female bestfriend who at that time, wasn't bestfriends with the bestfriend whom I am in conflict with.,.,sided with him during the height of the conflict.,.,.,

So that basically was it.,.,and since they were innately influencial people..,.they sort of like influenced the others in the barkadahan.,.Even as we've sat down to talked about it, i still could feel something that i can't put into a single word.,.,I mean.,,here's the thing.,.,,I used to be at par with my bestfriend in giving out jokes and setting the laughs and all.,.,but now, no one in the group would even giggle at the funniest thing i can throw at them.,.,.,.I arrive and an awkward silence is summoned.,.,.,I give out.,.,,oh why even bother.,.,although I'm thinking that it just takes time to bring everything back to normal and all that stuff about waiting..,.,I still can't help but reason out,.,GoD! isn't a semestre of not being with you guys enough? I practically died when the fight started.,.,and I waited ever since.,.,.what else is there to wait for?!.,,whoa.,,I never thought blogs were hard to do when you're hungry.,.,

XD.,.,might as well go grab me a snack.,.,XD =].,,But you know what.,,,,? I wish that i'll have that Zuko like ending (Avatar: The Last Airbender).,.and have friends at the end.,.,., I wish my "FRIENDS" well.,., I mean They're still my BESTFRIENDS, coz like in those insert coin video games i played in LCC when I was little, their still on top of the highscores list: no one else has come yet to take that title away from them.,.,.,and probably no one will.,.,but who knows..maybe i'll still have those days where i'll be waking up and checking my phone, and see that i have like 7 messages coming from 7 different people saying goodmorning and wishing me goodluck for the day in 7 different ways.,.,

So know you know why i decided to like be involved in the interweb.,.,to "WAIT".,.,,

My blogger isn't as good looking as my first account.,.,It was because i had friends back then who helped me in designing.,.,or actually did it all themselves.,.XD haha.,.,XD So I'm starting from scatch and oh about that.,.,Thanks to Tina Chen and fsDesigns.,.,Tina's Templates (one of the the blogger defaults) + fsDesigns Images + MyUniqueHTMLTechnique (higlighting and pressing backspace on the codes fragments i want to delete) = My blog ummmm.,.,blog background? page?.,.,what do you call it again? NvminD.,.,but it's the thing you see when you view my blog like the whole thing you see.,.,XD.,,you know what it is right.,.,? the one you are seeing right now.,.,the ALL of those things.,.hehe.,.,and on that fuzzy note.,.,thanks for reading the whole thing.,.,,.,and i hope you came back and check on me soon.,.,XD.,, later posts aren't gonna be as gloomy as this one.,.,XD>,,,

Thanks for being on Very Thin Ice.,., =]

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