instantly special.,.,

I'm not really good at directly saying things that i want other people to understand, Especially if it's to be told to people i don't fully know...

this week has been pretty rough for me despite my high hopes of having an awesome Christmas vacation, the leftover academic requirements proved to be insurmountable though given ample time provided by the yuletide break.Although i can identify things that made me happy at random days during the week, i still feel that overall, i'm down and depressed, just a little bit.,,

the game development project is proving itself to be a challenge above my par. starting it was easy, but when we came to the part where we needed to translate every code written to cater network connectivity for it to be played via LAN, I felt like playing super mario without any powerups, HELPLESS.

but as the title suggests, I wrote not to whine, but to thank two girls who seemed to have portrayed the role of being my "last good things about this part of town" people. ETHIE and TRINITY...

trinity is someone i've never actually met, seen, or heard of. but what i know is that she blogs, and i blog and she writes on my page, and i write on hers and i makes me feel good that someone actually replies to me online.,., =] .., and during this sad phase of the vacation she wrote on my page, saying she would add me up to a group of some sort. I liked that, it feels nice., =] I don't even know how that alleviated some of the stress i'm feeling towards me losing my glasses. LoL...
What are the chances that you'll be reading this one trinity? is trinity even your real name? In case you do, keep heart in my gratitude towards you and to people like you who are "online acquaintances" yet feel more of a real friend than those whom I actually meet in person. it's xmas, and you actually made my day.,. though it's roughly an hour before it ends.,, continue to keep in touch if it's not too much of a burden.,, =]

ethie is my idol. She's not famous or anything, it's just that she loves doing things that i also love doing, musical covers of soundtracks and stuff. and she's pretty good at it. wait, that's an understatement, let me try again,,,, She so fudging GOOD AT IT!!!! yeah!!!!!!!!!!! haha
What pushes my button though is that she finds time to do these things while struggling to keep up with pretty much things that i also keep up with. studies and life in general. And in these sensitive times when it feels like the atomic bomb of depression just got dropped in our front yard, seeing someone you look up to present in your youtube channel's 'subscribers' panel, felt like i was given water just as i was dying of thirst. with those things said, I'll just say thank you and i hope that's enough....i was finding of a more intense synonym but i can't think of any.,., so please accept my thanks.,.,

I probably won't feel comfortable telling both of you that i blogged about you, so maybe i'll just write things in your chatboxes.... =].,., and just in case you've read the post, i'm just hoping we could become stay in touch..,, =].., and be friends online (?)..,

yeah, officially this is embarrassing.,., =].,.
i just read the title again.,,.
i feel hungry.,..,., no, my eyes just hurt so bad i'm daydreaming about getting a new pair.,.,T.T.,

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