I lost the T-shirt contest

Today, I realized that putting yourself out there (internet) is something that would return either one of two extremes, an "in your face FAIL" or a "chocolate covered WIN with cherry on top".

I believe it was September 22 when i woke up to check Toby (Tobuscus) Turner's channel for new video uploads... specifically i was looking for new Terraria Commentaries. Terraria is a game developed by an independent game studio called Re-Logic. It was launched May of this year and has been gaining popularity ever since... The game makes me nostalgically happy since the feel of it is like that of an 8-bit mario but with the addition of awesome graphical effects =]. My friends even commented that the interface levels off with that of Plants Versus Zombies. Yup, a mixture of smooth graphics and classical 8-bit goodness. I have been casually playing it since a month ago. Maybe you'd like to play too (?)... here: - http://www.terraria.org

Anyway, Toby is my favorite when it comes to game commentaries. He make me laugh at almost all the things that he says while playing any of the games the "audience" tells him to. http://www.youtube.com/tobygames

It was because of him that I found out about Terraria, and it was also because of him why I decided to play. I liked the game -- Mainly because it took my mind away from the reality that is college. It gave me a break from the pressure of finding a job soon, from the fear of not finding one, from the anxiety of not being able to see fast progress in my Senior Project, from being troubled that anytime soon,,, my respected adviser for the said SP is gonna scold me for not doing well enough, nay, he's gonna 'beat the shit out of me' emotionally for being to lazy to do the extra effort he expects. All these things, i find too much to carry. I believe i can carry them, just not all at the same time and worse is .. . --

"There is HENTAI in NEITHAN".,.XDXD LOL

don't worry.,,. i know.,. it takes time to accept it... just let it sink in for a while.,.,

better? ok...

Yes... Precisely... That ↑  is what Terraria does...  it breaks the chain of negative thoughts that are going on inside my mind and gives me a reason to smile a little. At present, it's like my personal pause button, that when everything becomes too screwed up, I just play, and wait for my body to tell me that I'm ready again to face reality...


Now that I've introduced you to Toby, and I've told you about Terraria, and their roles in my life... and since I've also shared with you how depressed I am... I guess this song I made (which I submitted for a fan-sponsored T-shirt contest), will at least make some sense now... i present to you dear reader, FALLEN STAR (a song of hope inspired by Toby (Tobuscus) Turner and Terraria).

But before you view it though, take note that this one didn't make it to the top five. So although I treat this as the best among all the songs i ever made, understand that it could happen that you won't like the song at all., XD but i still love you.. **hugs*

For a while there, i thought i had the chance to win. I honestly felt that I had...
comparing this with my previous attempts to record songs I've written, this one...
(1) has electric guitars that don't hurt my ears.,,XDXD (check out my previous ones, you'll understand.,XD)
(2) has vocals that do not pop too much, and isn't too much panned over to the right or to the left, and to add, I have less sharps and flats one this one compared to the previous ones. >wM
(3) has a decent surrounding reverb that made the instruments fat-sounding.,almost similar to the actual studio recordings i compare it to
(4) has an actual video playing instead of just a background image that i don't own.

"Reality hits you hard bro" - George Lindell

I thought it only happens in movies -- that event when you give it your all and it turns out to be the worst thing you ever did, coz someone is better that you.

I needed that win... I think...

coz I was hoping that as of today, I'll be "Neithan, a boy who won the Tobuscus T-shirt contest and is gonna be scolded by his project adviser tomorrow for not being productive in his Senior Project".....

now I'm just "Neithan, a boy who will be scolded by his project adviser tomorrow for not being productive in his Senior Project"

Here is the video, showing the Top Five Entries.... Oh, the contest btw was sponsored by youtube.com/TobyTurnerAudience which is a fan made channel dedicated to cultivate a formal community of TobyTurner fans. You'll understand why I didn't make it., XP

And that's the story of how I tried to win a T-shirt contest... 

allow me to end this post imitating Toby's outro in his vlogs, coz it'll probably be the last time that I'll blog about him (?) **is traumatized*.,XD LOL

"Thanks for reading!!!
click the links on the left side of this page to view my previous entries BLESS YOUR FACE
if you sneezed during this blog post BLESS YOU
Peace-off
Parap-pa-doodoodooodooodoooo-SUBSCRIBE---Outro of Darkness then Redness then Whiteness!!!!"

***HUGS!!!*

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